Its my life

2009-11-01T22:44:00.002+08:00

Its been a week since i started my new job... hell its boring.... am starting to regret applying for this job already... but oh wells since i am in already i've got no choice but to bare with it and make good use of my time there i guess... and yeah alot have happen recently something which i am not suppose to disclose to anyone... somehow my guess all came true... i donno izzit good or bad that what i thought was wats happening... and no no one disclose it to me i kinda figure it out myself thats something i cannot emphasize enough... recently i did something for a fren... i donno if the thing i did actually helped or just made things worse... when i did it i didnt care about what the others will think about me...how they will see me after the incident... cosz all i can think of was helping a fren out... people can misunderstand me for what i did but i didnt care cosz i know it myself that whats was done was a favour to someone and nothing more then that... thats all i needed to know... nxt issue will be with regards to my r/s status... to all my friends out there who cared to ask, i say thx but sorry to disappoint u guys cosz i am still single as of now ^_^and i think i will be for a very long time =D... hmm been awhile since i visit the cinema already, missed quite a few shows recently >.< oh wells what to do when most of your frens are either watching with partners or they are too busy with work/studies to find time for movies anymore =( maybe i should consider going for movies alone sometimes =D shall put some thoughts into that =D

Health have been bad recently backpain and headaches are back to haunt me and theres nothing much i can do about it... and please dun ask me to see doctor cosz thats one of the thing i hate most in life >.<>.<... another was me in a plane on the way for some vacation and my plane crashed into the sea @@...sometimes i really wonder why do i have this kind of weird dreams are they like normal? haha... alright i should really stop stoneing away my weekends and start on my book....

2009-09-27T02:02:00.002+08:00

I have no idea when was the last time i really smile from deep within my heart... nothing have really been able to successfully cheer me up... some came real close but seems to just fade away slowly from me... was talking to suri when we agreed that singapore has become a boring place... but what is the real reason that has cause it to be boring for us... she mention about migrating but wouldnt it be the same? migrate to aus, newZ, swiss?? when you are there you will still be doing the same old thing...was telling her that we should treasure everyday of our life as we donno what will happen tmr... but what do i have to treasure? family? frens? love? seriously i have never been able to feel their love for me sometimes i asked myself, am i asking for alot? i am a very simple guy all i have wanted is to be happy but have i really been happy before?? maybe UK was right i am asking for too much thats why when i cant achieve what i ask for i feel bored of it...guess i would write until here for now too many things in my mind and i cant put them into words =)

2009-09-20T00:02:00.002+08:00

"Its not as easy as what u say" tis few words have been revolving in my mind... maybe what u said was right... all this while i have been deceiving myself that eveything i said is right, things are simple just that people like to complicate it...but the question is am i really right??

I donno why have i been feeling this way recently but everytime you feel sad i feel sad, everytime you feel happy i feel happy... whenever you are annoy by some people i feel angry at those people who is annoying you...But after all that has happen recently i am not hoping or asking for much i just wish to stand by you as a friend, hoping i can give you a hand and life you up from the mess you are in... that is all i asked for as this is the least i can do for you =)

2009-09-06T16:00:00.003+08:00

MIA for 2mths! but i am backed! =D finally AFC 2009 is over! and to my suprise our performance tis year was actually labelled as "Flawless" woohoo! Well now that AFC is over the next thing to look forward to would be none other then my ORD!! woohoo! Not that i am exactly happy to leave the navy but its just not very encouraging to know that i would be leaving the gang of idiots whom i am been working with for the past year =D All the happy and unhappy moments that we've been through tgt as a TEAM!

Anyways a quick update of me for the past few days since those are all i could remember =D

Friday

Suppose to meet up with yx fro blood donation cosz i receive a sms saying that blood bank was actually low on A blood , but end up she couldnt make it on friday so i decided to go ahead cosz she's going in on sat anyways. After that was watching "The Proposal" but i was still quite early so i actually took a train down to orchard and walked my way to PS haha.... And yeah the show was fantastic! minus the part where girls below actually scream when they saw "andrew" naked -_-'' after the movie was walking ard PS before deciding dinner at "Xing Wang" + i almost got force to kneel down at PS to propose! LOL ( after effects from watching the show) after dinner was desert( ice cream!) at Cathay's Ben & Jerry, followed by a slow walk along orchard and a nice conversation + i was told that i am not how i look like lol + looks are deceiving! nxt stop was all the way at IONs cosz i haven really been there before + trying to find the black color Burger King =D + bump into ariel at IONs and she was like so shocked to see me there -_-'' after which was home sweet home =D

Saturday

Woke up late thinking to skip lunch but was told to have lunch so decided to join sister at tampines and ended up at carls jr -_-'' was already 3+ before reaching home slack awhile before having to meet up with cookie and gang for buffet at T3 Crowne Plaza hotel ( Azur restaurant ) the food there was quite alright + the lobster + drunkern prawns =D but it was consider quite expensive cosz after a 40% discount with DBS card it still cost ard $37 =( and after which was home sweet home again =D

Sunday

Still rotting in the process...... =D

The day...

2009-07-01T09:25:00.002+08:00

Finally the day where i fly off from tis place, i donno why but i am just not that excited about this trip... sis was asking me yst nite if i feel excited which got thinking yeah y am i not excited at all hmm.. oh before i forget thx all who wish me a great trip =) thank you! its a short 6d5n trip and i will be back on monday hopefully my mood would turn better when i am back =D I wanna be a changed man!!!

2009-06-11T19:36:00.007+08:00

I am back to bloggging!! well haven blog in a while cosz i just dun have anything much to write about or i am just plain lazy =D

Well for all my SL frens
U guys would or would not have notice that i haven been in SL for awhile... well i am not dead yet! so dun be too happy for now! reason i haven been logining in is cosz i realise i need a break from SL, for how long i donno, but i guess on and off i will still login maybe to clear notice n stuff... hmm actually i had wanted to take tis break for quite awhile leh but all along theres something holding me back but right now i think its the best time for me to take a break before i get too addicted to it =D

My life!
Boring as usual! haha, hmm at least i manage to get some new shirt due to the unbearable GSS! haha totally enjoy my shopping trip and i even manage to get a watch at the expense of walking for 1 whole day! from Orchard > Raffles City > Marina Square > Suntec and finally ! i got a TITUS from city chain!! phew...
its not exactly the watch i had eyes on but it still looks presentable enough i hope haha and the price difference was like 1600% ? haha so cant complain too much =P

Oh!! and i had a weird dream recently for 3 continuous nite i dream of the same person @@ and the scary part was all 3 dream is about the same thing la! shall not name the person here cosz i donno if she would mind so i shall name her as Miss XX

The dream started with me running at fast speed, note i donno why am i running haha. And i was running along the shop houses near my first home, then after running for abit i bump into Miss XX ( okay i know its dam dramatic but bare with me ) then for god knows what reason i grab her hands and we started running again @@ then the nxt scene revolves around East Coast Park both of us was panting and we seated on the rocks near the beach to catch our breath... and Miss XX suddenly lean over and rest her head on my shoulder ( note in RL i am not exactly that close with Miss XX just normal frens ) and i put my hands over her shoulder and we kinda like fall asleep sitting down haha... i seriously found it weird as firstly i have nv did dream abt Miss XX before and neither have i ever had a same dream for 3 continuous nites! max was like 2 nites only =X So if anyone out there can decrypt dreams please help me decrypt mine!! and let me know thank you!! =D

My love life!
Empty as usual! haha so if you people have any single and available frens pls feel free to hook us up! not that i am despo for a girl but who will complain having someone by his/her side =P Have been looking at a number of wedding photos recently and i so have the urge to get married la! i think its dam nice =( everyone in office have been pester by me saying that i wanna get married hahaha they must have thought i am crazy =D But from the looks of it i think the chances of me getting married is quite slim i think lol...maybe i shld like what des recommend go buy a wife only cost $2k!! =X

2009-05-28T18:43:00.004+08:00

Nothing really interesting happen recently so my life is back to the dull dull life... there have been alot of thoughts in my mind recently but most of them i cant really express it out in words

1 of it was me being unable to understand how come some people can be very close to you today and cant stop talking to you, but the very next day they became extremely cold towards you and they give you a feeling as though they are trying hard to avoid or ignore you. I can never understand what is going on...

2nd would be why most people starts to drift away from me after knowing me for awhile , i really wonder what izzit that i do that makes them react in this manner.

3rd would be why do i always feel so emo and sensitive... hello its not like i choose to be emo and sensitive de loh, i really cant help it maybe its like inbuild in me... so rather then telling me to stop being so emo and sensitive wouldnt it be better if you could your like tell me how not to be??

guess i shld stop here for now donno what else to write already also...

How i wish things between us could go back to how it was like before... =)

2009-05-21T19:07:00.002+08:00

Simple updates on what happen this past few days....

God knows why but i have been feeling rather lethargic this few days i am like contstantly feeling tired... maybe its a sign of me getting old leh =(

Tuesday

Left camp early and bump into feiyou on the way out of camp, had a nice simple chat with him cosz so happens that both of us was going to suntec haha wanted to have coffee with him but too bad i had to rush to engwah to get my tickets for "Angels and Demon" so we parted way at suntec... After that proceed to city hall to meet up with her before moving on to suntec for crystal jades "la mian".... hmm the food was not bad but their cooking was kinda slow, there were only like 3 small groups of customer including us and the kitchen took like 15mins? to prepare two bowl of " la mian" haha.

After dinner was the movie and i have to say it was better then i expected haha, i think mostly is because of the previous movie "da vinci code" i kinda lost hope for this movie also but suprisingly it turn out pretty well. After movie was the usual 518bus home and that pretty much concludes my tuesday =)

Wednesday

I woke up late!! was suppose to meet xavier n cheryl at 6.05am at clearwater end up when cheryl called me at 6 i just woke up LOL SORRY! and the best part is xavier woke up late too!! hahaha anyways i manage to rush and meet up with them at ard 6.25am as we proceed to Toa Payoh for breakfast. Finish everything and moved into CHIJ Toa Payoh at ard 7.20am... oh! i din mention i was actually there to help out in a event somewhat similar to "The Amazing Race" our job was suppose to bring a group of sec 1 students around the areas they are suppose to go get their answer, my group consist of 12 girls and they were hmm quite alright i think , other then the squabbling between each others or the whining by some due to the horrible weather haha, luckily end of the day no one was hurt of anything and we manage to get back to sch on time too! even though we din manage to get to alot of the checkpoints haha but i think i din really do a great job i believe i could have done better in many other aspect =(

Oh wells after the event was tea with vicknesh and company haha i am lazy to list out everyone =D had drinks at the donut place at raffles city which i forget the name haha after which was dinner at breeks at marina square and the usual gossiping =D and i wanna complain!!!! y izzit that no one believe i used to be a dam quiet/shy/easily bullied guy??? zzzz whenever i mention how nice i am they always give me the dun joke with me look zzz idiots! =X after it was home sweet home and that concludes my exciting wednesday =)

2009-05-17T13:06:00.000+08:00

Well did a personality test and i found it veryvery true about me =)

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

2009-05-17T00:33:00.002+08:00

I totally screwed up this time round, really din know y i flare up n got so upset as i look back at it i felt dam dumb for saying all those things...what rights do i have to question you i am a nobody or at most a friend to you... i know things will never be the same again but still i wish that we can forget about what happen and start afresh =( and please dont't give me the cold shoulder....

2009-05-16T05:43:00.002+08:00

22yrs in my life i have nv felt so upset until today, i donno what i am upset about cosz its a feeling which i am unable to pen down with words... i just feel as though my heart is crying from the inside... no one understand how i feel at all...

2009-05-15T19:22:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i feel a song can totally explain a feeling better then words =)

2009-05-14T19:33:00.001+08:00

Well currently listening to Ronan Keating's - Baby can i hold you =) enjoy

Last weekends updates

2009-05-12T20:08:00.002+08:00

Well had a fun weekend + i haven blog in ages leh haha nothing much in my life recently so nv blog loh shall have a short update on me =)

Friday - Meet up with the kakis for KTV session at bugis topone, well consider quite cheap loh end up we only paid like $16 per pax which includes free flow of drinks + its from 11am to 6pm!! freaking 7hrs of KTV hahha... well and gotta apologise to the rest for listening to my horrible voice for 7hrs!! unlike the rest who have dam solid voice la! esp cookie!! totally like jacky chang shang shen hahahah ... After KTV was dinner at my favourite chicken rice stall near selegie road...after which me yunnie,mehmeh n wolf visited the almost deserted new shopping mall at bugis the illuma of something de... i think the mall is a epic failure loh haha the only interesting thing was 2 RICH guy spending lke at least a few hundred bucks just to catch a bearbear for the counter girl who is dress sexily lol but suprisingly they did manage to catch it in the end haha

Sat - Nothing much happening just rotted at home fbing and watch shoot condor, finally finish 50ep of it haha but i did skip alot of boring parts in between loh all those talking makes me wanna sleep haha i need actions!!

Sun - Was tempted by eddie to play dynasty warrior strikeforce , at first i thought it was gonna be like the old boring dynasty warrior but after i tried it i got addicted to it la! wasted my whole day just to clear 1.5 chapters zzzz

Mon - Went for physio in the morning hmm spent more time there this time wrong cosz something went wrong during the exercise and my back started hurting so my physio gave me a massage on my lower back and she keep saying that " hmm something seems to be stuck here" but she nv really further explain and i was in the right mind to question her also due to the pain haha end up after a few rounds of massage it got better then i went back home n stone for the rest of the day hahaha

2009-05-01T00:53:00.002+08:00

Its almost 1am in the morning... my body is extremely tired but then my brain just refuse to shut down .. i have tried lieing down and tried to sleep but i still end up being awake... i wonder at the rate i am going how long more before my body totally breaks down... as it is my body is already dam weak now + this i think its minus 10yr of my lifespan...

sometimes i wonder y is god so unfair to me why am i born with so many defects to my body why cant i be a normal healthy person living a normal life... finish study>get a stable job>find a stable wife>settle down a family>have a couple of kids>retire... it may sounds like a boring life but thats all i ask for from u... instead i have to bare with all this pain emitting from my body my wound and my heart...

haven been on SL much lately also, even if i am on i will prolly be afking somewhere to think abt it acutally i've nv really been active in SL also... i cant be bother dressing up... making myself look good... finding a job...most of the time i spend in SL is either afk or talking on IM n local but recently i haven been talking much also reason being everyone is moving apart and having small little clique.. and they have other things to do be it in rl or sl...and i have been trying to avoid the crowd in sl also donno y but i just dun feel like being among the crowd for now all i need is a quiet place with a couple of frens is good enuf =)

2009-04-30T01:11:00.002+08:00

I guess i was wrong once again, for now i shall take a step back and let things happen naturally....

Updates for 24th , 25th April 09

2009-04-26T12:43:00.002+08:00

First off - i think i broke my personal record of not sleeping for 48hrs... woke up at 3am on friday morning cosz i couldn't sleep well due to the pain in my back... then went to work as usual + duty + cant sleep again due to back pain.... all the way until sat morning 8.30am...

Sat morning - took a cab back cosz i missed the bus and the nxt was like 30mins later... reached home bathe and the nxt moment i am out of house again... off to bugis, was suppose to meet yanxin n suri at 10.50am but as usual they are super late -_-'' end up yanxin reached at ard 11.50am with her sister... walk to bugis baibai area where yan xin n sister go baibai i go find suri...

Sat afternoon - proceed to "topone" KTV for our KTV session, dam cheap la! 11am -5.50pm only cost $20 with free flow of drinks somemore! din sing much cosz i was shy la + voice so horrible dun wan scare them hahaha n i realise that the 3 of them got very nice voice esp yanxin's sister... suri for her hokkien songs! and yanxin for her 自high singing LOL

Sat evening - nxt stop city link to meet up with yan ling( yan xin sister) frens who are yi han , A( he's a thai) and yu hua ( hopefully i got her name right)... then walk to Singapore flyer woohoo! i feel dam mountain turtle la the flyers has been up for a year leh and yst was my virgin ride on it haha... we took the package of dinner + flyer ride which cost ard $48 per pax dinner was hmmm normal to me salad+fillet spag+tiramisu+peach bloom

Sat nite - after dinner we moved up to the flyer and woohoo the view was fantastic! i kinda pity the other passengers on board the same capsule as us cosz i think we were dam noisy thx to yanxin n suri who was happily trying to figure out where is batam haha =P after the 30mins quickie which ended dam fast la =(... we walked to esplanade and i like something from A... thailand dun have laska!!! stupid thaiexpress cheat ppl de hahahah.... then went up to the roof terrece to camp n everyone was camwhoring hahaha was almost 12 before we departed from there cosz everyone was gonna miss their last train or bus leh haha

Conclusion - well it has been a very long time since i really enjoy myself like that, thx to the group of people yst, u guys/girls really brought joy to me thank you =) Photos will be up once i get them from yanxin hopefully soon...

I am willing to sacrifice anything just to bring joy and laugther to your life =)

Totally drain...

2009-04-22T19:31:00.005+08:00

Totally drain today... not exactly because of work but prolly because of all the things inside my brain... For example if i have a 100GB brain i think i am using it like a 180GB brain... theres way too many things in my mind nowadays that i even dream about them when i sleep...

Half the time today i was merely day dreaming and most of the informations are like just passing through my brains without being process, so much so that i hardly remember much about what was told to me today...

Really pissed with myself for making so much mistake at work today and to think that i can even lost a CD in a room... now i seriously wonders at the rate i am going how long more i can stand it before i totally breakdown...i really need someone to talk to or chill out with but i donno y everytime i face a fren words just cannot come out of my mouth no offence to my frens, sometimes its not that i dun wanna tell u guys/girls abt things its just that i just couldn't find the words whenever i wanna talk to your...

A fren once commented that i think too much about others feeling...i tend to take rgds of others feeling before i say out what i wanna say in order not to hurt them...and all this thinking is gonna give make my life even harder... so shld i stop thinking and just say what i wanna say in a crude way? sometimes i really wonder if what my fren told me was right...

2009-04-20T17:46:00.002+08:00

finally ! wp is over!! even though i am not directly involved nor did i help out in anything much, i still find it pretty tiring god knows y haha... been having sleepness nite recently again =( back is hurting like hell and now shoulder pain kicks in arghh.... god pls tell me what have i done to deserve this kind of torture zzz really missing the old sporty andy, basketball + soccer + badminton u name it lets do it!

Recently i have a couple of frens asking me "so andy what kind of girls do u like? " for a min i was stun and i realise that i actually donno how to answer this question o.o and all this while i have been label as the "despo" guy who is always looking for a girl... lets do a checklist and see what kind of girls i like =P

Character

Good temper
Filial to parents
Non materialistic
Understand the hard part of earning money
Good attitude
NON smoker
Love to laugh
Love me =)
Must not be shy to make the first move

Appearance

Need not be drop dead pretty
Height is not a factor
I prefers meaty girls to scronny girls but i am ok with bth
No excessive body piecing , body carving , tattoos ( a couples is fine)
Preferbly long str8 hairs

I think this are the basic things i look out in a girl not that i have the capablities or so call 条件 to choose girls but this are like the good to have features =) seriously izzit alot to ask for?? haha hopefully i can find someone that suits the description above =P oh well shall take a nap first n making continue a post tml =) till then...

2009-04-19T13:15:00.002+08:00

woh! i am suprise i actually manage to woke up before 9am this morning taking into consideration that i slept at ard 4am =X... woke up rot abit then go for LJS breakfast + cutting of hair + library + home.....

talk about cutting hair my hair is dam short now la ask the lady to cut 薄 she go and cut short -_-'' and she keep pestering me to buy the anti dandruff shampoo argh irritating....

and here i am now backed home thinking of what to do nxt =(....

蔡依林 - 妥協

2009-04-19T04:14:00.000+08:00

Well since i have nothing to write at the moment i shall share a song to everyone out there =)

everyweek i will try to share at least 1 song which i am listening and hopefully i dun run out of songs =(

2009-04-19T02:27:00.002+08:00

thx yunnie for helping me with the designing of the blog =)

19 April 2009 1.33am

2009-04-19T01:33:00.003+08:00

First post since a very long time....