Its almost 1am in the morning... my body is extremely tired but then my brain just refuse to shut down .. i have tried lieing down and tried to sleep but i still end up being awake... i wonder at the rate i am going how long more before my body totally breaks down... as it is my body is already dam weak now + this i think its minus 10yr of my lifespan...
sometimes i wonder y is god so unfair to me why am i born with so many defects to my body why cant i be a normal healthy person living a normal life... finish study>get a stable job>find a stable wife>settle down a family>have a couple of kids>retire... it may sounds like a boring life but thats all i ask for from u... instead i have to bare with all this pain emitting from my body my wound and my heart...
haven been on SL much lately also, even if i am on i will prolly be afking somewhere to think abt it acutally i've nv really been active in SL also... i cant be bother dressing up... making myself look good... finding a job...most of the time i spend in SL is either afk or talking on IM n local but recently i haven been talking much also reason being everyone is moving apart and having small little clique.. and they have other things to do be it in rl or sl...and i have been trying to avoid the crowd in sl also donno y but i just dun feel like being among the crowd for now all i need is a quiet place with a couple of frens is good enuf =)